Im still trying very hard to adapt to letting those lonely nights pass me by without the internet. Sad to say, i guess this will carry on until i move house and that will be in another few more months to go.
The whole of last week was extreme madness. I took a few good years to curb my bad temper and controlled myself before i get into a bitch fit or throw tantrum. But i guess all the recent screwed up situations triggered my attitude cells and multiplied at a really amazing speed. I could just blow my top off at anytime, sometimes even without anyone provoking me. Adding on to the girls' monthly problem, im now seen by others as one attitude problem kid, who is cocky and arrogant and everything else you could think of.
Yeah, maybe i was. Or probably i did show some attitude. But you know what? I dont think im the only one in the wrong and i see no reasons why i should just swallow everything that pisses me off so much and not say a single thing about it. Im sorry, but im no longer a girl that will just keep everything to myself even when i feel unjustified.
I have learnt the hard way, and to do things the hard way. Now, being a straightforward person, i say what i wanna say and do what i wanna do without thinking twice nor bothering about how others may feel. Selfish? Yes i know. But it beats better than being a hyprocrite, who only say things or complain about other people to other people and not in their own face.
Or maybe, i am really wrong to shoot my mouth off and blurted all things out. All was in a fit of anger, i should have thought through my big brains. Sorry to have made things even worst.
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On a lighter note, the entire week was hell except Guang's birthday chalet and meeting up with Adrian, Clara and Reece.
Oh yes, before i forget, happy belated birthdays to Leanne, Guang, Bird, Zengwen and Alaric. So sorry Leanne i didnt make it to your birthday celebration. Bet you had a great time. =)
Things i did at Guang's chalet: talk cock, sing song, play mahjong, boom-o, water guns, sparkles, watching tv, falling asleep on the couch, barbecue, seeing him covered with satay sauce and apple juice and birthday cake and everything there.
It was fun, cos Guang is fun. Right or notttt?!
Met up with Adrian and Clara to Cosy Bay where Reece joined us awhile later. Had durians at Geylang for supper at a alarming price of $60 for 2 big durians. Wasnt even THAT tasty. But i still had a great time nonetheless, because as long as im not wasting time doing things associated with the hair show, all would be good.
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I just came back home with mom, dad and sis after having Japanese food for lunch at the club and shopping at Ikea. Im so bloody tired i wanna go to sleep now.
And yeah, fuck you people who label me as being an attitude queen and hate me for that. Blame yourselves for being incompetent and unproductive and start wondering why people would show you attitude before you blame me for it, losers.
And one last thing. Im sorry to my bestie and sam for causing avoidable problems. Now, blame or hate me if you wish, because i deserved it.
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